Hi again,
Well we finally started round 2 of our ICSI journey yesterday morning.
We went to the clinic and got taken early which was nice.....So we left the clinic at 09:30am following the Prostap injection.
We had a really nice day. We travelled down towards home and stopped off to see my brother, sister-in-law and my 2 beautiful baby nephews.
I realised just how much I had missed seeing them over the past few weeks and have offered my babysitting skills again!
We went for a nice breakfast, did a bit of food shopping - loads of fruit and veg! We got back about lunchtime and I started to feel a bit headachy and went for a wee nap...... I woke up 3 hours later!!!!!
All that nervous/excitement energy.
We had a nice meal and went to bed. I woke about 3am feeling generally "not right". I couldn't put my finger on what was wrong but I knew I felt just yucky. A bit nauseated, achy and weepy.
I eventually got back to sleep and woke about 9am.
I've been feeling pretty rough all day but feel slightly better tonight again, thankfully! I've not stuck to my diet today but felt it was ok to treat myself a bit as I was feeling rotten. DH went to get me some chips and he grated strong vintage cheddar over the top - fantastic!!!!!! I will start again tomorrow and be a good girl again. I did drink over 2.5 litres of water today so that's a step in the right direction......and several steps (worn carpet) to the bathroom (I know, too much info, but funny all the same!).
Turning to things more profound now..... I have to be honest, I'm really scared. I know I should be positive and I am being but I just don't want to set myself for another major fall like what happened last time. It's frightening to think that in just afew weeks time that we will receive either the best news ever or that our dream might be over again.....bitter sweet, funny how that phrase keeps on coming up.
I'm scared of being in pain again like I was last time but I'm trying not to think about that. Besides, I'd probably consider chopping my leg off if it meant having a child all of my own.
Well, I've just got to wait now for the next step which is my scan and in the meantime just keep everything crossed that that goes well, just like last time.
Here's hoping tomorrow is a better day. I'll keep you posted.
Love,
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