Hello again and a Happy New Year!
Well, alot has happened since my last post....
As I said previously, we were taking a break from treatment to catch our breaths and try to make sense of just what we went through.
Since I was last on, I decided to leave my job which caused me alot of stress and heartache both during treatment and also the rest of the time.
I started studying for a Diploma in Advanced Analytical Hypnotherapy at the beginning of Autumn which has so far been going really well. I had to travel to Perth for that and so I was able to overcome another hurdle in trying to beat the enduring anxiety and agoraphobia which had plagued me for so long. I've got quite a bit of work still to do (which I MUST get started now Christmas is over with). However, I should be completed mid January and should find out my fate in February. Then I need to set up a business, scary!
I've been doing afew hours in a local Nursing Home to tide us over which has been quite enjoyable.
In October there, we lost my wee dog, Timmy. He was a Yorkshire Terrier and we lost him just 2 weeks before his 16th birthday. He had been deteriorating gradually for some time but took quite ill and despite various attempts to help him, he didn't make much of it and we had a really hard decision to make. I'm still very upset and miss him so much, he was my wee pal and helped me more than I can say in words over the years.
So, 2008 was quite a tough year all round but through the bitter, runs sweet.... Things had to change in order that my life becomes better, something I have only been able to dream of for several years. I do feel much stronger than I have done for a long time and that can only be a good thing.
I phoned the clinic the day before yesterday to discuss going back for round 2 of ICSI. They were too full this month but I have alot of work over the next few weeks anyway so I will call them mid-January when I get my next period.
So, after today and tomorrow (ie when we can get all the Christmas food finished), I'm going back on my vitamins, eating better/normally and trying to get off the fags again.
I'm also thinking about getting Acupuncture again, since it really helped me in terms of symptoms and relaxation first time around.
So, all in all, I am filled with some hope and a sense of direction going into 2009. This is the complete opposite of this time last year when I/ we both did not think that anything was possible with what we knew back then...... What a difference a year makes!
Anyway, I will keep you posted with what happens next and hopefully that will be quite soon.
Love,
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