Hello again,

Despite the awful weather we have, I'm quite happy today. It has been a difficult week trying to get our heads around what has been happening to us. Each day, it has gotten a bit better thankfully.

As planned, I phoned the clinic on Friday there. Our case was up for discussion at a clinical meeting. They decided that we have to proceed with cycle 2 of the treatment with no changes. They said we could just carry on or leave it for afew months. I said we would carry on.

I just have to wait for my period and then phone for booking dates for the down-regulation bit again.

I'm scared but also quite excited about going again. I thought we'd have had to wait for afew months but we are glad to carry on from now. I just need to try and lose the weight I put on through the drugs and comfort eating!!!!! I reckon I have about 6-8 weeks to get my act together with that so I'll start afresh tomorrow using my weight watchers stuff again.

I phoned my union office during the week and they spoke with HR department and said I was to get Special Leave for my next treatment - I'll believe it when I see it. I hope to speak with my boss before we start because I do not want the carry on we have just had again.

My sick line is up this Friday. I was thinking of going back early but DH and the rest of my family said it would be a good idea to rest and get myself properly ready to return and I think I have to agree with them.

I have just been pottering about. I've not been out very much and haven't felt like it at times to be honest. I am hoping to get out a bit more during this week.

Yesterday DH and I, along with our 2 wee doggies; packed some beers and icecreams and went to a wonderful chippy which sits in the harbour. We then went along to the sea-front to eat them. It was lovely, apart from my youngest dog was REALLY playing up, being REALLY naughty and barking the whole time!!!! Needless to say when we got home, he went into his bed for a bit. We couldn't get angry with him because he kept making us laugh.

Today I cooked us a nice dinner and we have basically just hung around the house on account of the awful weather.

I'm sure that the next few weeks will pass quickly. I just hope that we can get booked for our treatment first time around again so we don't have to wait around another month.....Let's hope it's 2nd time lucky for us!

Will keep you posted.................

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